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coffeesnob318 ([personal profile] coffeesnob318) wrote2008-07-28 02:30 pm

Blech

Natalie made me leave the house Saturday because she's worried that I'm depressed because I'm not going out much any more. I'm not sure that I'm necessarily depressed but just poor because I have one less paycheck but all the same bills during the summer (and thus not able to afford going out). Also, being in my room doesn't mean that I'm sleeping but just wanting some alone time. But she is still suggesting counseling. I don't see that counseling will help. Even when I am depressed, talking about it doesn't usually help. Especially if it costs money that I don't have. *blinks*

So I went to Melissa and Conrad's house. We played games and I met their dog Zazha. Cute one. Very sweet. It was fun.

I have to finish The Historian before Thursday. Then I can get out of the house and go to book club. I will finish it. I will.

This week I am working days. And there's hardly anything to do. I completed billing from the last conference, and Friday morning I am going to prepare for the next (last!) conference, but that's it. I could prep for the semester. I am also awaiting notice that I will actually have classes (and that much missed extra paycheck) this fall.

Hey - I could read. I have about 400 pages to go before Thursday. And I will finish it. I will.

Anyway, *waves*

[identity profile] myras-girls.livejournal.com 2008-07-28 08:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi, there!

I have personally found counseling helpful at certain points in my life but I believe everyone is different and what works for everyone is unique to that person. Generally I try to avoid giving advice, unless asked for it, because I believe it's important for each of us to find our own way. For myself I have gained greater confidence and joy from figuring out for myself what works for me. (Not that I don't sometimes need or ask for suggestions or help!)

Being poor sucks. Well, obviously, but yes, having fewer choices for self care isn't fun. And as much as I love to stay in and have alone time, I like to have the choice to go out, too. I imagine I'd get moody after a while if I were too broke to go out. Wait, what am I thinking?! I have been that broke. hmmm... I don't remember being moody necessarily but I was more depressed or depressed more often. Or something. But then again at that point in my life I had a lot of growing to do.

Well now that I've babbled on about myself er.... um... hello and I hope you are enjoying your day.

[identity profile] delerium23.livejournal.com 2008-07-28 08:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Being poor can deffinately make you blue. I got a pep talk from my mom on that very subject this morning.

She said, "You are doing what you can to move up and forward. As long as you keep your goals in mind and don't spend the money on stupid stuff, everything will be fine."

Hanging out with friends at home and reading good books are both good things to do when poor.

[identity profile] magpie8386.livejournal.com 2008-07-28 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
...Hate to burst your bubble, friend. Friday morning you will be in training sitting next to me as we listen to nine hundred people talk about the up-coming year. Friday afternoon can be conference time.

*waves*

[identity profile] coffeesnob.livejournal.com 2008-07-29 12:08 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. I get depressed but not really about money. Not really about anything. Just in general. I'm just not sure that this is one of those times. But when I am, I am most definitely a figure-it-out-myself sort of girl.

[identity profile] coffeesnob.livejournal.com 2008-07-29 12:09 am (UTC)(link)
Our usual Monday night group that goes out has all decided to take it to one of our houses tonight. Yay! I am excited.

[identity profile] coffeesnob.livejournal.com 2008-07-29 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
I have other plans for Friday afternoon. I'll just do it Thursday. That will take up a good hour Thursday.

[identity profile] ravenluvslex.livejournal.com 2008-08-04 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
Um, well... having lived with you I could see where she might get that impression. You have both been home more and she is getting to see all of your moods. If I were not of a similar nocturnal-ish, down time requiring, moody nature I might have worried about you a lot more.

Also I think you ARE a little depressed, and have been for a while. I don't know that counsleing is the answer, but if you found a free counseling service it couldn't hurt to have an unbiased guided conversation.

I dunno, mostly all I am saying is that I can see where Natalie, who is almost constantly in motion and has been craving more social activity as long as we have known her, could get that impression.