Resolution

Jan. 19th, 2009 07:24 am
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I'm a little slow on everything this year. So now I'm getting on with my resolutions.

First a recap on how I did this last year:

"1. Reading - 75 books this year."
Um....not even close. I read the least that I've read in a long time. Probably since high school. I've been quite the un-literate this year (as evidenced by my use of such non-words as "un-literate." And, um, "non-word." Ahem.).

"2. Edit novelette written during NaNoWriMo so that it's send-off-able and send it somewhere. I have no expectations that anything will come of it, but I want the experience of the process."
Apparently, my lack of expectation was right on the money. I can barely stand to look at the novelette now, much less edit it or let it ever see the light of day again. It haunted me all year.

"3. Break this rut. Try something new. I don't know what. I know that I would like it to be a boyfriend, but I'm a little picky to be willing to obtain a boy just to fulfill a resolution. It just seems these days (perhaps even more apparent during the holidays) that everything I do is something I've done before, just with different cast members. I want something new. I just don't know what it is yet. I'll keep you posted. Be sure to stay on the edge of your seat."
Wow. Done. And done. I think I went overboard. In addition to being more open-minded and adventurous on the boy front, I've moved around like mad. All my stuff is still not at one place. I moved out to Providence Village (which is like another planet compared to any place I've lived before) and back to Denton. I've gone through a couple of roommates and am now looking at having the place to myself. It's been a while since I've lived alone. But I decided that I'm tired of living with people to whom I am just a temporary fix. That sounds harsh. I don't mean that they think I am temporary - they love me and are there for me - just that our living together is. I am not ready to live with anyone else who is not committed to me for the long haul, and right now, the only person who fits that is me.

"4. Run a 5K. I want to run a marathon by the time I'm 40, so this is a mini-goal to send me along that way."
I so did not do that. This year.

My new resolutions are:
1. Be healthier. I have an exhausting, borderline OCD plan for doing so. So far, I am sticking to the plan.
2. Deal with my debt. I have a plan (which includes scheduling meetings with a financial adviser on campus who will keep me accountable to the plan) for this, too.
3. RUN A DAMN 5K. Seriously. It is just not that long a distance.
4. Read 50 books. I'm just not myself when I'm not reading on a regular basis.
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Well, actually, my life is reflected in how I react to books. Really, life is reflected in how we react to everything. But books are what I'm talking about now.

Yeah. It's Monday.

So it's been a while since I updated on resolution progress. As for running and paying off the car...yep. Still doing both. Making progress, although not as much as I would like to make.

Same goes for the books, but here is the progress that I have made. It seems that I'm taking longer to read than I normally would because the books I'm reading strike me with something about my life. I've been more introspective than usual lately (which means it's amazing that I leave the house at all) - writing in my paper journal more. So these "reviews" may give a little away about the books, but they're really more about how the books affected me.

Ok, since I'm even boring myself here, I'll move on.

Previously, in coffeesnob's journal...
1. The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning
2. Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris
3. Blue Like Jazz: Nonreligious Thoughts on Christian Spirituality by Donald Miller
4. Flipped by Wendelin van Draanen
5. Yeah, I said it by Wanda Sykes
6. Found in Translation by Kim Moor
7. My Point...and I do have one by Ellen DeGeneres
8. Why Girls are Weird by Pamela Ribon
9. Velvet Elvis: Repainting the Christian Faith by Rob Bell

And now....
10. The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd )

11. Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella )

12. The Velveteen Woman: Becoming Real Through God's Transforming Love by Brenda Waggoner )

I'm about a third of the way through the next one - Down to the Dirt. It's a little different than I'm used to reading. Someone in Toronto called it Angry Young Man Fiction. Interesting. I picked it up because I am always thinking, whenever I read something by certain feminist authors, "If only ____ (insert name of one of a myriad of highly conservative Texas men that I am graced to know) would read this and really try to understand, it would do him a world of good." It's so easy to say, "If you would just...it would be good for you," until you = me. I have this compulsion. I want to help people undertand others who are very different from themselves. And in Texas, particularly when I go to visit The Parents in West Texas, I'm that weird other. But I can't make other people understand my point of view. Sure, I can share it - and it's my responsibility to do so if I want to be heard. But I can't make them want to listen. Even if I can get them to agree that it is good for us as humans to hear things we don't agree with, they usually just take that as an invitation to share their point of view. I get a lot of chances to understand things outside my bubble. In that sense, Texas is a friggin' cornucopia of opportunity. But I can't make anyone want to return the favor.

What I can do is be the change I want to see in the world (thanks for the tip, Gandhi). I can choose to listen - not just to the messages which inevitably bombard me, but to those that would never reach me unless I decide to become a willing audience. So picking up this book is my decision to do just that.

So far, so good. I'm not as offended as I expected to be. I am expecting to disagree with a lot of the attitudes portrayed - either by a character or by the author himself - but so far, I'm finding that angry young men and angry young women are more similar than different. It's been interesting so far.

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